Me Singapore, MK USA

My eyes are swollen, my nose is clogged, my mouth is dry, my throat is coarse, my head is throbbing, my heart is aching.

I am suffering from John withdrawal syndrome. I am a mess. After I got back from the lab, there is nobody waiting for me anymore. There is no familiar blob of messy blond hair I can see from a distance in that brown bench in engin anymore, which belongs to someone who happens to be the love of my life. This distance is crippling. His absence is making me insane.

I thought I would just, you know, cry at the airport and that's it. But it still hurts. It hurts so bad. It's so painful to be physically away from him because our souls are connected.

I know he is the one. I have finally come to terms with all my past hurts and disappointments because somehow all those decisions and experiences - unpleasant ones included - lead me to the day I was wrapped in his arms, and knowing without a doubt that this guy is the one I am destined to spend the rest of my life with.

It wasn't easy, and we even faced opposition at first, but I believe we've already proven to those well-meaning people that we truly care for each other. Now another challenge arises, but I know we'll make it through. I know that someday I will be marching down the aisle, with him eagerly waiting for me at the other end, and we are going to start our new life together and we would never have to part again like this.

For now I would need to stay afloat as the final waves of my university life try to engulf me. I am counting ten more weeks, including this one, with deadlines for each.

Week 1 (March 2-8): *** job interview (my first ever real job interview)

Week 2 (March 9-15): Christianity in World History midterm test
Human Relations in the New Economy reflection paper due

Week 3 (March 16-22): Biological Activated Systems midterm test

Week 4 (March 23-29): Human Relations in the New Economy Group Report due
Christianity in World History essay due

Week 5 (March 30-April 5): much needed preparation time for next week

Week 6 (April 6-12): Human Relations in the New Economy Group Project due
Management and Organization group project and reflection paper due
Final Year Project thesis submission

Week 7 (April 13-19): Biological Activated Systems term paper due and presentation

Week 8 (April 20-26): Human Relations in the New Economy final exam

Week 9 (April 27-May 3): Christianity in World History final exam

Week 10 (May 4-10): Management and Organization final exam
Biological Activated Systems final exam
Final Year Project oral presentation

Well this is what I know for now, and I hope there's not much to be added anymore because all these things need a lot of preparation, especially my final year project.

*actually today I started crying after the research fellow assigned to supervise me at the lab told me I would still have to continue my lab work until the end of this month. 6 months of seemingly never-ending lab work with my supposedly Christmas holidays thrown in! It is labor-intensive work too and physically tiring. Gosh. I was hoping to finish it THIS WEEK because how am I supposed to study for my midterm tests if I'm already worn out from the lab at the end of the day???

God please help me. I am too weak to do all these things if I just rely on my own strength. But I know I can do all things through Christ. I know these difficulties will never go to waste and there is a reason why I have to go through this. And please always take care of John too. I love him so much.

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Oh by the way, I am so heartened to have such wonderful friends. Really guys, thank you for making John feel welcome, for extending your warmth and for being nice. Thank you for initiating get-togethers. Thank you for being so thoughtful. I feel richly blessed and privileged to have friends like you :)