Sa Araw ng Pasko

This song is for my family.



Okay, I tried to sing along but I choked on my tears halfway. Not because my voice is so horrible, but because the lyrics have never been so true for me until now. This is the first Christmas I will be spending away from home, away from my family. It more than sucks.

I've always been grateful for every Christmas spent with my family. We've always been complete, until this year that is. December has always been the only time of the year when everyone's home, because for the most part of the year, I am in Singapore, Dimple is in Manila, Paolo is in Davao, and I'm really glad my father has already been assigned to General Santos (my hometown) so he could be with my mother and YC, our youngest.

I remember last December, we've finally decided to go to a photo studio to have a family portrait professionally done for the first time. However, the studio lost our photos for some reason. The management offered a refund for the fees but my mother still got super pissed (which is understandable) because my sister already flew back to Manila and I was also leaving for Singapore, and we would have to wait for another year until all of us will be complete again and be able to have a family picture. But since I am not going back this December, I guess we would have to wait a little longer to have that photo taken.

Right now this is the only family picture I have, which is already quite outdated coz my hair is back to being pin-straight again.

My final year project is the reason why I'm going to miss Christmas back home. My supervisor already told me as early as August that this would be the case. I didn't believe her at first, but eventually as I learned the scope of the project and the expected input from me, I realized why I had to stay here.

I would have been completely miserable having to go to the lab everyday instead of relaxing and bonding with my family (and the fact that the rainy season in Singapore falls on December does not help at all). But God is good, as always. I'm really glad and thankful that John's coming over here to spend Christmas with me:). So there's something to look forward to:). I would have wanted it even more if I could go home and introduce him to my family...but oh well, I guess I would have to wait for another time.

At the back of my mind I know I will be missing out on a lot of things by not going back- like the Global Gathering (I don't know when the next one will be), the youth concert, Missy's debut, and other stuff. But I gotta do what I gotta do, and well my high school director have always told us that Happiness is a choice.

I won't mope during Christmas, I will be happy. Yeah.

Advanced Merry Christmas everyone.